
One thing I'd say is don't overlook books. Textbooks may seem less appealing than slides or videos, but seriously sitting and reading a maths book from cover to cover is a very powerful experience. It may take months, but you will learn something significant from doing it. And if you do that for say Thomas's Calculus and Anton's Elementary Linear Algebra, that's about half of a maths degree already.
Anyway, I'm happy to discuss these topics further with you (or anyone else reading this). I'd personally love to find a serious online community for studying mathematics, but it seems very hard to coordinate such a thing.
Other books assume you already know what they are talking about.
https://ruor.uottawa.ca/items/f66a4ede-e276-486c-9067-9621d5...
Really felt like being thrown in the deep end at the time, especially since it was my first exposure to proofs. Very rewarding when it finally started coming together, though.