
This collection of essays was the last work planned by Ayn Rand before her death in 1982. In it, she summarizes her view of philosophy and deals with a broad spectrum of topics. According to Ayn Rand, the choice we make is not whether to have a philosophy, but which one to have: rational, conscious, and therefore practical; or contradictory, unidentified, and ultimately lethal. Written with all the clarity and eloquence that have placed Ayn Rand's Objectivist philosophy in the mainstream of American thought, these essays range over such basic issues as education, morality, censorship, and inflation to prove that philosophy is the fundamental force in all our lives.
tldr: Everyone needs a rational philosophy.
In any case, it sounds like you are making a lot of progress in a positive direction in your life but mostly by removing negatives instead of achieving positives. Nothing wrong with that and given your context that is where you needed to start. But the process doesn't stop there, eventually you'll run out of negatives to remove and have to start thinking about actual positive achievements in your career or personal life. This might be the step that caused you to flame out before so you might want to consider what you really value and what you want to do with your life in terms of positives[1]. As a fellow dropout I know the state of not feeling "ready" once you are on the school/work/career/family path but now that you are presumably older, wiser and more mature things have changed so figure it out.
[1] More theory but also relevant to your question and very practical, Ayn Rand's "Philosophy:Who Needs It" and "The Virtue of Selfishness."
https://www.amazon.com/Objectivism-Philosophy-Ayn-Rand-Libra...
https://www.amazon.com/How-Know-Epistemology-Objectivist-Fou...
That said, I think there is certainly some anti-intellectualism on the Right and behind Trump's success (no surprise). However, I don't think the nation is awash in irrationality, racism, misogyny, etc (though that is the Left's scary, dishonest spin) and the election was, at least partly, a repudiation of the Left's posturing as the intellectual, reasonable alternative.
The first is if, in general, you repress your emotions, i.e. feel them yet stifle them instead of allowing yourself to feel them, then you are unavoidably also stifling your creativity. Many people are afraid to express their emotions especially the negative ones like hate, fear, anger, etc. out of fear of social disapproval or in the mistaken belief that rationality means to be unemotional, like Spock. The problem is that the good emotions like love, joy, happiness, desire, etc. get repressed in the cross-fire as repression indiscriminately chops off your highs and lows.
The second cause is being uncertain about what you believe is true and right and thus self-doubt that you will be worthy of or able to even achieve success. In any serious endeavor you are going to run into resistance from naysayers and other barriers to your goal. More importantly, such goals are inherently selfish and there is 2000 years of anti-selfish propaganda floating around the culture. One common adage to counter the self-doubt is to "fake it till you make it" which many rational people dismiss as obvious non-sense. However, that adage is not meant as advice to be dishonest or a "faker" but to take action regardless of your self-doubt or fears, because in the end you will develop the skills, ability, mental toughness to achieve and enjoy the ends you seek.
The goal is not to fear and repress your emotions nor to go through life without strong convictions (what you believe is true and right) but to understand both and change them if necessary. The good news is that there is an Rx for both of these cognitive errors which is to write a daily journal to examine and revise your conscious convictions and your subconscious emotions. Moreover, to counter the onslaught of anti-selfishness in the culture and lay down a path to being integrated in mind/body and thought/action you should read Ayn Rand's "The Virtue of Selfishness" and "Philosophy:Who Needs It".
NB: Before anyone jumps to conclusions; not a Trump supporter and did not vote for him. Also, I think that global warming is probably true based on historical and temperature records (but I put almost zero confidence in "climate models") but it is not nearly as dire as the scaremongers suggest.
